Why am I up at 4:20 in the morning? My body is screaming, “I’m exhausted!” nevertheless, I am awake.
"Do I pray?"
"Do I turn on Grey’s Anatomy?"
"What about scrolling through social media?"
My mind is racing a hundred miles a minute, going over the decisions that I have made and the consequences that might follow. Trying to prepare for the worst, I have also searched in Safari's search engine, "Have I gone too far? Is it too late?”
This sounds all too familiar, right? We all get those 4 AM moments. Some more than others. In those moments, we beat ourselves over the head with the same question, “What could I have done differently?” The hard truth is nothing, what is done, is already done, so we have to face what comes with it. With that answer, our faith and hope begin to subdue because we have somehow conjured the false reality that failure is the only choice left.
Listen, failure was never an option, to begin with. That is not what Abba intended for us. He has plans for us to prosper. Yes, we get a little big-headed, fall out of the will of God, and have to face the consequences, but God is always willing to make a fair trade with us. He trades ashes for beauty, mourns for joys, heaviness for praise. Do not lose your hope dwelling on what you could have done better. Job 14:7-9 (NKJV) says, “For there is hope for a tree. If it is cut down, that it will sprout again, And that its tender shoots will not cease. Though its root may grow old in the earth and its stump may die in the ground, Yet at the scent of water, it will bud And bring forth branches like a plant.”
Whether we were “cut down,” or "stumped" by our selfish ambitions - there is always hope. Our Father’s capability to send just the “scent of water” provides us with an opportunity to produce from what we thought was already “dead."